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聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 聽 Dreaming is鈥� weird. I know I鈥檓 hardly making a revolutionary statement when I say that products of your subconscious that tell odd disjointed stories most often without actual sound or colour are strange, but there鈥檚 really no other word for them.

聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽 What I find particularly strange about dreams is how there seem to be so many different types, for me. There are good dreams and bad dreams, dreams about all kinds of different topics, dreams that are realistic and dreams that are way too weird to be taken as reality.

聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽 Perhaps most weird to me about my dreams is that I never have lucid dreams, where you know you鈥檙e dreaming and are able to control your dreams, but I do have dreams that influence reality or are influenced by reality pretty constantly. Some of my least favourite dreams are ones that make me move my body. I鈥檒l be having a perfectly calm dream about jumping on a trampoline, but once I move to jump off the side of the trampoline, I鈥檓 suddenly awake with my legs jerking at the sudden 鈥榠mpact鈥� with the ground.

聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽 Sometimes my dreams like to interfere with sounds. I can鈥檛 tell you how many times I鈥檝e had a dream about being in an airport and listening to the faraway sounds of a nice song on the radio, only to realize that鈥檚 my alarm playing my favourite song in an attempt to wake me up. I鈥檝e tried changing my alarm so it instead plays a buzzer to wake me, but then I just have intense dreams about my favourite video game characters leaping into action while the buzzer notifies them of an emergency.

聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽 That鈥檚 not to say I鈥檓 doomed to oversleep. Many scientists say the human body has a 鈥榖iological鈥� clock, and I think it鈥檚 this that has made me wake up from my dreams a few times. I remember a particularly fantastical dream about living in a hollowed out tree with my family, and a horde of giant bugs coming into the tree to attack us. I desperately tried to warn my mother, but she just rolled over in bed and told me, 鈥淒on鈥檛 worry. It鈥檚 almost time to wake up anyways.鈥�

聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽 I woke up five minutes before my alarm. I don鈥檛 really understand these dreams, because they aren鈥檛 exactly lucid ones, but yet everyone in my dream always knows when I need to wake up, and when I get to a lull in my dream鈥檚 story, someone inevitably says, 鈥淲ell, this is a good place to leave off.鈥�

聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽 A type of dream I have pretty often feels like the opposite of lucid dreaming. Not really, though, as the opposite of lucid dreaming would likely be sleep paralysis, which is a very real and very creepy condition where people are trapped in nightmares and aren鈥檛 really able to move or wake up. Thankfully, I don鈥檛 have those, but I do have dreams that I think are reality for days after the dream, no matter how ridiculous the notion may be.

聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽 I remember in Grade 9 I had a major math test. I was in an advanced placement class, so I was taking Grade 10 math already. Despite that, I felt I was decent enough at math, and even if the test was a hard one, I was confident I鈥檇 walk away with a score in the high 80s or low 90s.

聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽 When I got the test back, it was a zero. I was horrified. I didn鈥檛 even know it was possible to get a score that low. Aren鈥檛 you supposed to get points for at least trying and showing some work?

聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽 I tried to hide the exam from my classmates, who always liked to compare their scores to mine as I was the stereotypical 鈥榮mart kid鈥� in school. I was miserable the rest of the day. I didn鈥檛 even have an appetite for supper, and I had trouble sleeping.

聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽 The next morning, I was getting ready in front of the mirror while my mother was applying makeup. I realized then that I hadn鈥檛 told her about my test grade. I knew I鈥檇 probably be grounded for a year, but I knew it was best to get this over with instead of letting my guilt build up inside of me.

聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽 鈥淢om?鈥� I choked out. 鈥淚 have something to tell you.鈥�

聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽 I realized right at that moment that I, in fact, had nothing to tell her, because all of my memories of that horrible test score were actually from a dream I had last night.

聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽 I鈥檝e also had dreams about missing the bus for a ski trip, winning a spelling bee, getting kicked out of a drama club, and other bizarrely normal things. And every time, I go on with life thinking that鈥檚 what actually happened to me for hours or even days before I recall the truth.

聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽 One of the latest dreams I can remember, and the reason I wrote this article, is another one of these realistic dreams. In it, I remember getting up, getting ready for work, eating breakfast, driving all the way to the office, staring dully at my computer screen, and then getting ready to leave for work鈥� only for my alarm to start buzzing and wake me up. I learned then that it is in fact very exhausting to pull yourself out of bed when you thought you had already lived out the whole Monday ahead of you.

聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽聽 I still don鈥檛 know why I get tricked by my dreams so often. Perhaps I鈥檓 just a gullible person. Perhaps my dreams are just very vivid. Maybe my real life is the dream, and all my dreams are visions of the true life I鈥檓 supposed to be leading right now, and I鈥檒l always be trapped in this fantasy world鈥� and that鈥檚 probably too much of an existential crisis to have on a Monday morning when I haven鈥檛 had any caffeine.